Chapter 2i - Fated?

It was quite late when Mr.D picked Mr.R up at the LRT station, near to evening. And when Mr.R reached Mr.D's house. Mr.D showed him around, except his room,

Mr.D: My room damn messy la, don't go in la

Mr.R: It doesn't bother me though

So, as Mr.R insisted, Mr.D led Mr.R to his room

Mr.R: Nah, it's not that messy also, better than mine!

Mr.D: Haha

Normally, Mr.D's laptop will be in his room all the times, 24/7 (24 hours and 7 days), but he has a habit, whenever he is rushing assignments or studying, he would surely move the laptop outside his room and put it on the dining table. It was an examination week, so obviously Mr.D's laptop would all the times be on the dining table.

Maybe, Maybe, something would have happened if the laptop were in the room. However, it wasn't and Mr.D's parents were out there. So, basically, Mr.R just accompanied Mr.D doing revision. Well, Mr.D ain't someone who could keep quiet, grabbing every little single chance to talk whenever he could, let alone that he now had someone in front of him to talk to. He barely could concentrate on the revision, and he spent most of the times talking to Mr.R even though he needed to revise for the exam.

Soon, the phone rang, and Mr.D picked up, it was his grandma, asking him to go over her place for a quick dinner. Well, Mr.D and his grandma were very close, so he immediately said "Ok!" to his grandma without concerning Mr.R's existence at all. However, Mr.R was an easy-going person, and he had no objections at all when Mr.D asked him to follow along since he hadn't had his dinner yet.

After the dinner, on the way home, it was so obvious that Mr.R wanted to move his hand and grab Mr.D's hands, but he didn't do it. Maybe, he was afraid of being pushed away by Mr.D or he just respected Mr.D but he didn't know Mr.D was waiting for that moment to come. When they reached home, Mr.D's parents were out, still limiting himself to an extent which he considered as safe and respectful to Mr.D, he only did a little comfortable and relaxing massage for Mr.D as Mr.D was overstressed with the examinations. And Mr.D was so enjoying that he closed his eyes and he got quiet, quietly feel the energy and the flow of Mr.R's massaging skills.

Expectedly, they soon got into the room, but yet the line hadn't been crossed. Mr.D still held tight to his principle, he just hugged Mr.R, even though he wished to cross the line. They two spent quite a long time on hugging each other, they never wanted to let go of each other as if it was so inseparable like a tied knot. Time flew, very fast, it was almost 12am, and Mr.R needed to go to his auntie's house and he supposed to follow his auntie back to hometown on the following day. Although feeling sad that Mr.R would leave soon, Mr.D held back his emotions, showing a very strong and firm image like "It's not a big deal at all!". Deep inside Mr.D's heart, there was a kind of sorrow that just ain't describable or conveyable as no adjectives ain't enough to say it all. But what about Mr.R? Did he feel the same way? or it was just a normal goodbye for him?


Time started to pass but their affections for each other never disappeared. On 18th August 2008, Mr.R finally confessed to Mr.D that "I've really fallen in love with you". Mr.D wanted to say so much, wanted to say "I feel the same way too", but he wasn't brave enough, just ain't!He still wanted to hold tight onto his beliefs, onto his so-called principles. Before confession, Mr.D was told that Mr.B saw all the smses between Mr.D and Mr.R, and the blood just rushed to his head, and he finally couldn't take it anymore, he wanted to break up with Mr.R.

Mr.R: He did ask me...Whether I still love him or not

Mr.R: I paused for a while before answering...And yes I do, I still love him...

Mr.R: But now, not all my love can go into him...If it was before, I'd answer him straightaway..

...

Mr.R: I've really fallen in love with you...

Mr.R: I just hope you won't retreat yourself from my life, that's all I ask of you

Mr.D: Problem is, how about you?Is that fair to you?

Mr.R: I don't mind...

Just like this, they continued their unclear, ambiguous, uncertain, dubious or confusing relationship...

Is he fated to fall in love with Mr.R?
Is he one of the arrangement of fate for Mr.D?
Is fate being generous or cruel?
Is it all about being fated?

Deep inside Mr.D's mind, those questions never failed to pop out whenever Mr.D was free, Mr.D tried so hard to find an answer for each question but to no avail. No one knows, and no one will ever know...Only time knows what the fate is planning, and time will tell, it will...

End of chapter 2 - Fated?

Pen off,
Mr.D