To start off with, Mr.D has had some unpleasant experiences in his past relationships...Let's briefly talk about it.
One lonely midnight, Mr.D was still surfing net, even though he had nothing to do online. He was trying to find something to do since he didn't wanna sleep just yet, but he couldn't find anything to do. All of a sudden, there was a fella adding Mr.D as a friend on msn, and of course Mr.D accepted the add. He approached Mr.D with two words "Ding Dong", as a sign of greeting, they soon clicked on each other, although they hadn't met each other personally yet. The conversation continued to the morning light and ended soon after the sun rose. It continued for the next few days, so they had decided to arrange a meet up on 26th December 2007. After the meet, the feelings got stronger, the chemistry between them started invading their bodies. And soon, they embarked on the journey we people used to call "relationship".
Sad to say, they only managed to walk on the road together for a total of 8 months, and the journey could never be completed and just ended with lots of regrets.
Mr.D started falling in love so deeply, claiming that he couldn't live without Mr.E. The longer Mr.D was with Mr.E, the more he loved Mr.E. Maybe it was because of the incompatibility of both their personalities, given that how much they loved each other, they still couldn't overcome the barrier. Mr.E and Mr.D had total distinguishable traits and attitudes, and Mr. E always blamed on Age Gap which Mr.D would never agree. But one thing could never be proven wrong, they both were stubborn. They had arguments very often that it had almost become their daily activities. Just because they loved each other too much, they couldn't let go of each other, broke up, made up, and broke up and made up again, never seemed to have a conclusion. And every time they argued, Mr.E would start avoiding from talking over to solve the problems, and this had made Mr.D very mad at it.
I don't know what Mr.E had done to save this relationship, but I was sure that Mr.D had had a 180 degree change, from a person who claimed that he must always meet up with the one he loved,if possible, everyday to someone who could bear to just see his lover once in a week, or even longer. From a person who would always care about what his lover did to someone who couldn't bother to care much any longer. Trying to put up in any way he could just to avoid quarrels, at a certain point that he no longer had the energy to deal with it.
During the 8 months, there were really some good guys who appeared in most of Mr.D's sorrow nights, comforting him, accompanying him thru-out the nights he quarreled with Mr.E. Some even tried tackling Mr.D and making him theirs. But none of the attempts succeeded, because Mr.D still loved Mr.E very much that he could never accept someone else.
One day, something terrible really happened. And Mr.E's never-gonna-admit-wrong-attitudes never changed. Pushing all the blames towards Mr.D, Mr.D didn't care much though, but this time he really couldn't endure any longer. He finally proposed a break-up to Mr.E as he felt there was no mutual trust between them. The relationship was lacking of something crucial, or that we call "Trust". It would be so pointless and meaningless to continue walking with someone who would never trust you enough and yet placing all the blames on you when things went wrong. Very surprisingly, Mr.E said "OK", and never even said a word to hold Mr.D back.
Mr.D was still waiting for Mr.E, hoping that Mr.E would do something to retrieve the relationship. He was sure that he would accept Mr.E if Mr.E would wanna save this relationship. Yet, he still put all the blame on Mr. D, never even showed intentions of saving the relationships. "Cuz you wanted it!", Mr.E said, still the same old him, pushing the responsibility to others and assuming he was always right. He even furthered with "You can still be with me, if you want to", like Mr.D should be begging with his knees on the floor to ask for a make-up or reconciliation. From that moment onwards, Mr.D swore to himself "I am sure that I made a right choice to be your friend"
One thing Mr.D still doesn't understand is why do people only learn how to treasure things or people around him after he has lost them?Wouldn't it be too late? Mr.D and Mr.E still were friends, and that day Mr.D visited Mr.E, wanting the drama series, and suddenly Mr.E hugged him, initiating for sex. Mr.D, of course, pushed Mr.E away. It was all too late for Mr.E, as there was someone else in Mr.D's heart. Only if Mr.E held Mr.D back that day, they would still be together then.....Only IF...
Anyhow, Mr.D would never deny that there did exist happy moments during the 8 months, and he thanked Mr.E for everything he had within those 8 months. He never hesitated to say that Mr.E was someone whom he loved so much, and that Mr.E would always be in his heart that nobody could ever replace.
Pen off,
Mr.D
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