Chapter 4 - Official Break-up?

25th August 2008, a day that Mr.D would never forget for the rest of his life. An incident that Mr.D had never expected its arrival, but there was nothing that could be done besides accepting the merciless truth which tore apart the heart of someone who put everything he could in it to make the relationship blossom. Like a glass, dropped on the floor, broken into pieces, scattered all over the floor, so loudly that could actually just awaken everyone who was sleeping so soundly in the middle of the night. There was not any exception for Mr.D either, his heart was broken into pieces aloud, only difference was this time only Mr.D could hear the breaking sounds, but the others heard nothing. Mr.D almost collapsed, he couldn't believe this was real...He broke up with Mr.E!

The question was, why did it happen at all of a sudden, and how? Was it because of Mr.R that Mr.D decided to end the relationship with Mr.E? Or was there another story behind the scenes that was yet to be revealed?

It was 12am, 25th August 2008. Mr.D and Mr.E had some conversations on msn.
Mr.E: You want tea?

Mr.D: Ok, you drive?

Mr.E: How about make it tomorrow?

Mr.D: ..........

Mr.D: I'm dressed, then only you say

Mr.E: Lazy drive le

Mr.D: I can drive to your house there la

Mr.E: Then ok, not too long lo, because late already

Mr.E: How about go for breakfast tomorrow? =)

Mr.D: Up to you!

So, they both agreed to have a breakfast at 9am. Mr.D knew Mr.E was tired after working, although dealt to meet at 9am, he actually gave Mr.E extra 1 hour to sleep. Reaching there at 10am, he gave Mr.E a call

Mr.D: Hello, I reached already.

Mr.E: Ohh, ok. Gimme 5 minutes, I brush teeth and I'll come down, can?

Mr.D: Well, sure.

Mr.E came down with blur looks, like a somnambulist, who walked or did activities in his or her sleep, subconsciously, ain't knowing that he or she was doing it!Except for some distinguishable traits, his eyes weren't fully closed, he was at least 40% awake, knowing exactly that he was heading towards Mr.D's car, although the remainder might sleep soundly somewhere deep inside his soul.

The night before that, Mr.D told Mr.E that he needed some cash, and here again Mr.E was reminded about that case. Mr.D was heading to the nearest petrol station as the fuel was soon to be running out. There was an ATM machine at the petrol station.

Mr.D: Eh, I need some cash for my work, my sister hasn't transferred the money to my bank just yet, so I need to borrow from you first, once my sister is done with the money transferring, I would return the money to you.

Mr.E: How much you need?

Mr.D: Err, quite a big number le, but I need 500 because I don't know how much the fees are.

Mr.E: Huh?So much meh??

Mr.D: Nevermind then!

When Mr.E said "Huh?So much meh?", his face just turned unfavourably, with all the wrinkles popping up, and the eyes just stared at Mr.D with full of doubts like Mr.D was going to cheat away all his money, and the tone was just so self-protective as if he were being attacked by a group of animals that went berserk as the hunger had overtaken their sanity. The words, so unpleasant and harsh, reaching the ears of Mr.D and soon Mr.D's face turned black in a minute, saying "Nevermind then!" with the anger tone as if the whole world had turned its back on him.

Mr.D wasn't very happy, he got to transfer money from his mama account to his own, which was very troublesome for him. Supposed to have breakfast outside, instead, Mr.E proposed to have "take away" and eat in his house. After all, Mr.D needed to go to Mr.E's house to do the e-banking transfer. To show that Mr.D was not happy, Mr.D turned Mr.E down when he was asked what kinda food he wanted, "No, I ain't gon eat, I still got a lot of stuff to do, sorry". Well, Mr.D saw Mr.E coming back with two packets, ain't sure if Mr.E did order one extra for him. It was none of Mr.D's concern, though.

After getting all the things done, Mr.D decided to leave, "I done all transferring already, and I gotta go now, a lot of stuff to follow up", with a face that would just turn everyone off, it was so obvious as the expression and tonality had told the story.

Mr.E: Can you please stop acting like that?

Mr.D: Act like what?You have no idea how disappointed I am!

Mr.D left with no hesitation, Mr.E could do nothing but to open the door for Mr.D to leave. Perhaps, he could have done something more. When Mr.D got in the car, he sent a text to Mr.E stating that it was meaningless to continue as there was no trust at all even though they had been together for 8 months. Of course, Mr.E was still trying to protect himself, his never-admit-wrong-attitudes had again shown up, pushing all the blames towards Mr.D.

The text written and sent by Mr.E:

"Cuz never on the right timing, plus you din further elaborate much on that. And I just woke up, blur blur."


Mr.D replied:

"If you really trust me, you don't even need to ask me. Plus, doesn't all that I told you tell you the story already, what more do I need to elaborate?And you said you were blur, would you have listened even if I would take the time to tell you the whole story? The ATM machine is just right in front of you, and I already assured you the returns, yet you rather wanted me to do this and that to get the money transferred, I'm really disappointed."

Mr.E kept on defending himself, and Mr.D really gave up, ignoring all the texts sent by Mr.E because he had been very tired, trying his best, giving every single effort to save the relationship, but he failed in the end. The break-up was a peaceful one as they agreed to be friends. But was it really the true intention of both parties to be just friends?And were they really willing to let go of each other, given that they still loved each other?

Mr.D once promised himself that he would never ever shed a single tear for Mr.E no more. Yes, he did carry out the promise, he cried no tears on the way home, not even a single tear!He remained calm, as he seemed to be. He got down from the car, with no emotions, just like a zombie, but with consciousness, he unlocked the door, then walking towards his room. As usual, he switched on his laptop, open the windows media player, searching for a song named " I will always love you" by Whitney Houston. This was when Mr.D collapsed, he couldn't stand it any longer, he'd rather break the promise he once made to himself, than to endure the pain that burned inside his heart. At this point, the only person that he could think of was Mr.R, he called Mr.R up, with the crying voice that only children could have mastered the skill. He wasn't a child after all, yet he cried like one, telling Mr.R that he broke up as Whitney Houston sang "And I will always love you, will always love you...". Mr.R kept on asking what had happened, but Mr.D just repeated " No, nothing happened la, I'm okay". It wasn't convincing enough to persuade Mr.R that Mr.D was alright, in contrary, Mr.R was worried as he knew Mr.D was just pretending to be alright, and was suffering an emotional breakdown deep inside his heart.

It was all about trust, and a relationship that trust did not live in, wasn't worth someone to keep. Mr.D knew he had to do that, even though everyone might think that his love has swung too much towards Mr.R, instead of sticking with Mr.E. When everyone might misunderstand him, he still chose to bear the consequences.

Mr.D waited for Mr.E to save the relationship, he wanted to make Mr.E realize what the real problems were in the relationships, no matter what, he couldn't volunteer or initiate the move to reconcile, or else Mr.E would never realize his mistakes and worse when the history was to be repeated. He waited and waited, Mr.E still did not want to make any move, was it because of his ego?Or he thought that both him and Mr.D should have a rest for a while? Or he was just too occupied with his job that he had gotten no time to deal with the problem for the time being?

What would be Mr.D's next move?Would he be firm enough to wait for Mr.E, even for a month or more? Or he would let down his pride and beg for a reconciliation? Or would he move to Mr.R for a new relationship? Or would he choose to be single for a while? There was not any room for prediction, Mr.D was right now standing at the crossroads, facing 4 paths that upheld different futures each, with no predictions made available of how each future would be like, and he gotta make a choice and embark on the new journey with no regrets.

Pen off,
Devil